*Confessions*
{Monday, April 30, 2007 @ 12:32 PM}
One Motherfucking setback after another.
A collision of emotions that i can't bear.
Spare me a minute to collect myself please.
Cause i'm lost within my own thoughts.
God it'll feel good if i could take the brain out and give it a beating to stop this migraine.
And to put the cherry on top, you have to be angry.
It was a joke.
It all was!
I hanged up. and you were suppose to call and laugh.
Not blow up in my face.
Seems like the desperation for humour to soothe this damned soul was just a futile effort to add more damnation.
And this isn't even about the actual problem.Maybe
he is were right after all.
Emotions don't last.
They run dry as soon as the reality bites.
Stop fucking filling my thoughts with your sayings.You don't even know me.Cigerattes sounds mighty fine to me now.
Hazardous as it may seem, it's clearly stated that the system where you puff it in and out is a good way to relieve stress.
And get this, stress kills to.
So is there much of a difference here?
You're given the option to choose your weapon of suicide.
So does this mean drinking is good too?
It cleanses the system in your body.
It also socially benefits you as you'll make friends through
drinking kakis.Debates taught me that.So what is good and bad in this world?
What's wrong and right?
What are the things that we should acknowledge and the things we should mark taboo?
Who knows?
Keep closing your eyes. Blind yourself from the things around you.
Open them when there's only total silence and no visibility.
Be as innocent as a virgin.What moved me to write an entry like this??
When you decide on one possibility, do tell.
Cause i'm done thinking.
Leave me alone.
{Saturday, April 28, 2007 @ 10:15 AM}
Don't you just wish you have the ability to summon up alot of courage to ignore hypocrites who you think are friends BUT you blooody well know that there're just talking to you just to waste time cause they have one weak mundane pathetic life?
i sure wish i do.It's tiring to think about things like this.
It's hurtful when you reminisce about the good times.
It's painful when you're forcing yourself to let go.
Diamonds among rocks.
no.Diamonds among Rubbles.
I'm blessed to have find them.
And no rubble will ever shine brighter at me anymore.
Cause i'm starting to wear shades. =)
School's fun.
Same ol Same ol.
The F***** up thing is i have 2 java language base subject and 2 computer architecture languages.
And SINGAPORE LAW!
Wooooo!
The first lesson of it was good enough.
But we have to draw in some tutorial lessons.
And me drawing is as bad as the penguins flying.
IT's been a while since i met sarah & zahid.
Stupid schoool. Take up all my time.
I wanna graduate fast!
And get my driving license.
And me and zahid can do what we told each other we would do back then.
Babyyy!
OPAC is conducive ok?
Make sure u go study there!!!
love.
ok done.
{Saturday, April 21, 2007 @ 11:27 PM}
I'm fucking mad..
period.
Right.
Whatever la.
{Friday, April 20, 2007 @ 11:43 PM}
4e3 outing tomorrow.
Hope it'll be nice.
What happened to the good ol days?
ok done!
{Wednesday, April 18, 2007 @ 4:42 PM}
Had the Briefing today.
And i found out we had to take Elective subjects accumulating to 8 CU's.
And we have to have them to graduate.
Firstly, what the hell is an elective subject?
Secondly, why were we never properly informed of this?
Me and Salina went all hectic!
Khai couldn't care less!
We have to graduate!
Ok. So i'm a bit pissed.
Thinking i was late.
Cancelling things at first prompt to catch up with time.
Only to give miss calls and wrong info's.
Haha!
Wrong infos.
Its everywhere in this world.
And i am getting FUCKING sick of it.
Pardon for being able to express myself more emotionally.
Everyone's changing.
And i wanna be a part of it.
I don't wanna be stuck here forever.
And i'm sure as hell not gonna let thoughts keep me down.
Yes.
I lack self-confidence.
GREATLY.
I haven't been aided.
Nor do i want to.
Cause it'll just be superficial.
The world is one big LIE-ING junkyard.
And there are only a few treasures buried.
On a lighter note, school is starting next monday!
what a drag.Class to be attended.
Assignments to be done.
But hey, we're given less modules this time cause the school dumped a WHOLE lot of them on us during Year 1!
Alas! Something positive!
I can't wait to attend lectures!
I can't wait to get all that assignments!
I can't wait to sit for the term test!
I can't wait to sit for the main exam!
I can't wait to stop lying!
Baby, take it easy on school ok? =)
Love2.
Ok done!
{Saturday, April 14, 2007 @ 2:05 AM}
I knew this day would come.
But i didn't know it'll be here so soon.
i doubt all.
cause there are lies everywhere.
everywhere.Anime are useless right?
Wrong.They're stories.
Stories have morals.
And morals are life.
and i am not an anime-freak.
He's gonna do just fine
love.Done.
{Tuesday, April 10, 2007 @ 8:26 PM}
Everything looks hazy now!
I've infected baby's sore throat and am coughing like a sick dog!
And that irritating little sister is bugging me to accompany her to Science center.
Get this. QPS parent care group are 'busy' on that day.. So, people who wanna go SC has to bring one guardian.
The catch?The guardian has to look after a group of nine pupils.
Me + 9 P6 pupils = 9 first degree murder and 1 suicide.
I just can't click with them brats.
With their snappy comebacks and oh-so-irritating faces.
haha. Tsun tei-chou is refusing this one too!
Yes.. That responsible LEADER of DSC. =)
So we went to Ngee Ann at 8 am in the morning.
I went home cause she'll finish orientation at 1.
Came back. Had lunch.
fooled around in the rain.Walked her home.
Then it was over.
Time does fly when you're having fun.ok.
The chest is burning.
Stupid sore throat.
Stupid Tiger balm.
Ok done!
{Saturday, April 07, 2007 @ 11:40 PM}
What the hell is it doing here again?
I left you years ago.
Why are you here?
I don't like you.
Please go away.
This emotion.
A long while made me drop my guard.
My
barrier.
Again i fall prey.
And again i feel like turning my back.
But i can't.
This is too much of a thing for me to cure with pure ignorant.
Yet ignorance is bliss.
It can be the best option.
Option?
I have none.
It's just one straight line.
And i'm not even deciding to go off-road.
What the hell is wrong this time?
Silence is golden.
And it pays to listen rather than to contribute.
Maybe a change of lifestyle can be the scape goat.
For
a while.
But how.
F&$% with your opinions.
Tell it to yourselfs, make your damn life perfect first before u decide to comment on another persons agenda.
Stupid sons of _____.
ok done.
{Friday, April 06, 2007 @ 12:25 AM}
It's been awhile.
But i'm falling in love with my
PSP again!
Teeeheee!
Scarface. A sick game about money, power and women.
But heck, if you're a guy, and u have that thirst for BLOOD, then you should definitely give this game a try!
DSC is finally pulling our socks up!
Intense recording sessions one after another.
But heck, tsun tei-chou and myself ended up laughing all the way.
Pressure just can't seem to break through our thick skull!
But heck, that's how hits arise right?
*brush the shoulder's while the touge pokes the inner part of the left cheek*
this is probably the longest expression made by mankind!
GREAT!
A few things that i wanna get:
"Bleach"
PSP game. (Anime crazy!)
Audio Technica Headphone!
wahhh!
I have to get these stuffs before school starts!
MUST!
Mummy!
=)
ok done!
{Monday, April 02, 2007 @ 11:44 PM}
My 2 besfriends are away at camp.
My girlfriend is held captive in her own sanctuary.
My pokemons are of the highest levels and i am just sick of battling.
My bleach will be released on 4th APRIL.
and My heroes is fucking not found! (FARZ! TORRENT FILE!)
BUT..
I've started to study for My CCNA.
I'm appreciating my books more.
I'm a lil' bit more fonder of washing the dishes.
There, for every downs, there's always ups
But the ratio of downs to ups is always much much more greater.
But life ain't all that bad.
I've got:
new shades.
new sweater.
new pet monkey.
I need my BLEACHHH & HEROES!
I need my BESTIEEES!
I need my GIRLFRIEND!
and i am whining like a little girl.
Stupid boredom. *&$#%*#&&#*#$*$#@#!
ok done!