*Confessions*
{Thursday, April 24, 2008 @ 12:06 AM}
So school has started.
The first few days were a bit of a bore.
But i've managed to pull through.
Count on me to be optimistic i guess.
Me and Kumar decided on something!
and i think i'm up for it.
maybe its gonna be good.
maybe it'll last.
maybe it won't.
but i'll give it a shot.
might never know when my lucky stars are shining extra bright huh.
AND FINALLY.
i got to play FF7 crisis core.
Only thing is...
I HATE THE DAMN GAMEPLAY.
what happened to the old rpg mannn.
when you actually had to plan your every move.
pfft.
the world is advancing too fast i guess.
i guess i'll stop here.
PSP and phone call awaits.
nyahahaha.
i've updated...OK? =)and yeahhh, i did something productive today.
wahahwhaw.
proud as hell...
over something so miniscule.
talk about a silver lining.
-_-
and i can't believe you're gonna be older than me.. again.....!
urgh.
Done.
{Sunday, April 20, 2008 @ 1:27 AM}
God did give me one solution:
Me.
Now, what should i do with the solution?
{Saturday, April 12, 2008 @ 12:36 AM}
Contender Asia Contender Asia.
Here i come.
Tsun, Doc and Myself.
Champion does what a champion say, numsayin'?
{Thursday, April 10, 2008 @ 11:42 PM}
I can rag on and on about how bitchy life is.
But somehow, it just don't change things.
Yes. I know. Changes come from us.
But what if you just can't make the change?
well, you live with that scar i guess.
Seems like i've been rotating the other way.
I can't seem to convey what they're saying.
Maybe i have a problem comprehending with people's judgement.
Well, as block headed as i am, i do know what's right and wrong.
if i didn't, i'd be making bad decisions in life. right?
But hear this..
They say the more bad decisions you make, the more you learn,
And the more you learn, the more you know how to live life the right way.
So is life an investment?
Where we lose lose and lose to gain in the long run?
But what if there is no gain?
What if its lose lose lose then bankruptcy?
Yes it sucks whenever you have to think of the long term effect of a decision that you're making.
Cause you will never ever know how it will turn out.
It'll either go your way...
or you just find yourself empty handed.
So think?
Are you holding on to a glass of water which is at your disposal?
Or onto ice, melting ice, one that will melt away from your very grasp later on?
What if the very core of your purpose of living is withering away??
Will you stay to find out what happens next?
Or actually do something about it?
i know what i want.rest assured. =)
polo.
{Friday, April 04, 2008 @ 5:08 PM}
i'm grounded.
literally.
and it's pissing me off that i can't do anything about it.
did i mention this is torturous too?
come back soon.
{Wednesday, April 02, 2008 @ 2:38 PM}
Know the expression "Drowning in your own thoughts"?
Yes.. that cruel treacherous expression.
and i know it a bit too well.
Its one of those days that the littlest action can affect you like a nuclear bomb.
Just one word.
Just one smile.
Just one smirk.
Just one action.
Just one spin.
Just one session.
Just one conversation.
Just one Whatever.
and it doesn't help that you have to freaking dream about it too.
BUT!
it doesn't end there!
the mind has to torture you!
it'll create pictures in your mind.
images you don't want to see.
conversations you don't want to hear.
events you just don't want to experience.
then it sucks the life out of you.
affecting others around you.
cause you see.
in an area where there are alot of positive energy going around, ONE source of negative energy is enough to suck it all like a black hole.
Example:
Everyone's laughing their ass off.
You came along with no smile no nothing.
They keep asking why.
You just don't want to share.
They'll be affected somehow.
You'll feel guilty.
ADDING to your lifeless-ness.
wait.
Why should they care what goes on with you?
idiot.They're your friends.
Why wouldn't they care?
now now.
why this blog entry?
i freaking don't know.
i just want god to tell me why he gave me that uber stupid cum sugguh-tak-perlu dream.
Dreams are a sneak peek to your future.
or the present.
i dreamt i was catching pokemon around woodlands stadium recently.
so when is it coming true?
pfft.
believe in your Dreams too much and you'll stop living.
it'll really halt you from thinking and feeling.
part ni pandai cakap ah ejat.
why the hell am I still thinking about it then?
cause ejat mcm paham.
bye.