*Confessions*
{Wednesday, April 02, 2008 @ 2:38 PM}
Know the expression "Drowning in your own thoughts"?
Yes.. that cruel treacherous expression.
and i know it a bit too well.
Its one of those days that the littlest action can affect you like a nuclear bomb.
Just one word.
Just one smile.
Just one smirk.
Just one action.
Just one spin.
Just one session.
Just one conversation.
Just one Whatever.
and it doesn't help that you have to freaking dream about it too.
BUT!
it doesn't end there!
the mind has to torture you!
it'll create pictures in your mind.
images you don't want to see.
conversations you don't want to hear.
events you just don't want to experience.
then it sucks the life out of you.
affecting others around you.
cause you see.
in an area where there are alot of positive energy going around, ONE source of negative energy is enough to suck it all like a black hole.
Example:
Everyone's laughing their ass off.
You came along with no smile no nothing.
They keep asking why.
You just don't want to share.
They'll be affected somehow.
You'll feel guilty.
ADDING to your lifeless-ness.
wait.
Why should they care what goes on with you?
idiot.They're your friends.
Why wouldn't they care?
now now.
why this blog entry?
i freaking don't know.
i just want god to tell me why he gave me that uber stupid cum sugguh-tak-perlu dream.
Dreams are a sneak peek to your future.
or the present.
i dreamt i was catching pokemon around woodlands stadium recently.
so when is it coming true?
pfft.
believe in your Dreams too much and you'll stop living.
it'll really halt you from thinking and feeling.
part ni pandai cakap ah ejat.
why the hell am I still thinking about it then?
cause ejat mcm paham.
bye.
